Feeling

我睡不着的时候 

会不会有人陪着我

我难过的时候 

会不会有人安慰我

我想说话的时候 

会不会有人了解我

我忘不了你的时候 

你会不会来疼我

EL- Elris

Once again. Again again again!!!
So disgusting . 

LOVED

Surprise~~~
Love to be Loved~~

Throwback Post

Well, Next Monday... What a Day?

My bf and I have been together for N years plus. We are same age btw. He is ambitious and hard working. He told me that he wants to give me a good life. So, at last... He has made his decision to move now. He wants to move to Japan for his new career working life there.

He wants me to go with him, but I can't leave my family whatever I like. The main point is... My family is here. :( I cannot make my decision easily. Don't selfish.

He is ambitious and hard working, and he is said that many of his friends have moved to Japan and doing greater things.

Can someone please give me a suggestion? Especially we are both not young anymore and are looking to settle down.

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只要解释了，就没有误会的存在。大家都开心 ^^

S.O.R.R.Y

快要结为一对夫妻的新人。

一个脾气硬，强。。
一个没有脾气，只会安静的聆听有脾气的那个人说话。
没有脾气的那个时常不懂得表达自己心中的想法。
但，她确实是有自己的想法或看法。

今天，你叫我做东西。我做。不过，你知道我做不好，你就马上不爽。马上就说出一些会让我觉得伤心的话。一直在讲，一直在骂，一直在不爽。
说真的，你来电的一句话我就马上泪流了。那种感觉~~~不懂怎么解释。
我也知道那是你的一套。那是你的pattern...

我不是不承认我做错东西。好，你说我每次没有心做东西。然后叫我做一点东西都不能做好。
当我解释了，那个答案却不是你想要的。
其实。。也没什么好解释。
说多错多。

最后，

对不起。我是真的不是有恶意的。

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So many things have happened these few months. I am so tired.

Don't wish to think so much, but I really can't control myself. Cried for nothing is just so STUPID. 

I used to be a "WHY" person. I always thought I can understood the "WHY". 

But seems I was wrong. How to stop worrying? 

I am sorry, I can't get you closer. 

I am too scared to get hurt. I can forgive but I can't forget it. I just can't handle hearing...

Sometimes, I just want to hide inside. 

This is me. Love to be quiet when having troubles.

I smile like nothing's wrong, act all perfect, pretend I am okie, but inside he really hurts my feelings, 

I can't believe what he did. 

Honestly, I feel really stupid for holding on to things that just keep on hurting me. 

Nothing hurts more than being disappointed by the single person you thought would never hurt u. :(

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Sometimes........

快乐是自找的，不是你给我的..........

Hazy Sky

It's been a long time didn't touch my blog. 

So, it's time for an update ^.^

What else can I share? Hm... 

Just talk about latest haze in KL. 

I thought y'day rains can keeps haze away, but today seem got no diff. 

Still can't see the blue sky. >< It is really still seriously hazy out there. 

My colleagues and I just prefer to stay indoor lunch just due to the suck weather. LOL. 

Pity to those who has to work outdoors. @@ 

Whatever, just don't forget to drink more water!!

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Haiz...
Once I've update, why it has to be bragging about something bad.
Weak? Fail? Yes, I am. @@
I know I cant blame anyone. The problem lies within me.
I couldn't talk normally if compare to other people. This is my problem.
But this is also not what I want. Who can understand my feeling?
I wish to be able to talk smoothly myself, but since I've involved an accident last time.
My voice always stops when I'm talking. I can't even talk well. This is also my problem.
No choices what!! :(

Well,
I know in this world there are many kind of people.
Now, I'm working in this company,
I've met new people. Sure, got bad and good one.
Simple just want to address to that GUY which I think he is a “good guy”.
If you are thinking I am a weak girl in doing something for you,
You can talk to me about this.
Or I will ask you directly as well.
I just wonder why I couldn’t get his attention even though I’ve talked to him by myself.
Ignore me? It will makes me feel that I'm actually NOTHING to him.
Feeling not comfortable if facing this kind of people.
Sad case, I still not strong enough.


~Trying to stop the negative thinking~

Movie Fright Night

Yeah yeah~~

Happy hour**

Tomorrow is my off day. 

So, I can enjoy my time tonight.

I have an idea! Decided to go for horror movie with my dear family later! 

So surprise that my dad is joining us!
It has been a long time since I had watched a movie with my dad. ^^

Just no stress after work. 

Enjoy the weekend the fullest!

Stay GooD

Felt down when saw a post from a friend. Is it I think too much? 

Haiz... Emo-ing again. 

Jamy, don't let people bring you down~ Smile!

Since now its my month-SEPTEMBER.
I've turned to 25 this month.
Helo~~ Yes. I am getting older. So what? /.\

Well said. I've been in my new work for 3months plus+++

New place, new people, new experiences.
I am learning something new about myself everyday.

Growing and getting matured as each minute passes.
During my working time. I'm having such a difficult time in my career.
(Which means: I have never handled so many things that I've never done before)
I'm always thinking that I wasn't good enough.
I couldn't do my work well, give pressure myself.
And then, I'm losing hope.
Why am I so weak?
Donno~~~
So good that still I have my friendly colleagues who helped me whenever I'm having trouble.
Thanks for teaching me all this while ^^ 

Appreciated to have all of you!
Good Luck!!!

UnDerConfiDenT

People said: If you're facing problem, then must settle the problem.
Otherwise, you will be demotivated.
Just handle your emotion first, then figure out way to settle it.
If not,
You will fail in everything if you are under confident.

Jamy, don't be scared, ok?

Psychological Disorders

Once again.

I'm afraid of I won't do well at my job!!
I try to learn from the mistake, but still... :(

I need to talk much to other, but my voice is stop me all the time.
I am so upset. Nobody knows. :(

I am so sorry.

The Outing

Last weekend, I had a great time with Aya-chan. Guess what?
Aya-chan is my new friend from Japan.
Simple introduce, I called her Aya-chan, this name is actually only for those who are close to her.
I am so lucky that I can call her Aya-chan :)
Haha. Well... No big deal. x.x

Finally I met her in person! She is pretty and friendly as I've expected!
I like to talk to her so much, even though my english speaking is still not so good,
but luckily both of us did enjoyed chatting!
Since both of us are still trying hard to speak english,
so chatting is not a big problem between us.
We can learn from each other.

Okie, back to topic. Frankly speaking,
I felt excited and nervous before meeting Aya-chan. 

(Mix Feeling)
The reason for being excited reason was:
I finally get to meet her while being nervous on the other hand: I was worried about I could not speak english well with her.

In the end, there weren't any problems :)
Relax man!! Ok fine. Continue~

We took her to Semenyih for lunch. (lunch or breakfast? I wonder~)
I heard Aya-chan said papparich chicken rice taste really good,
but Ben told her that nonono~ that is not the real local style chicken rice. ^^
So we had chicken rice for lunch in the end. Haha.
We had a great talk while having our meal,
and I've realized Aya-chan loves spicy food, too! Same as me!
We both are spicy girl then. LOL. Kidding :)

After meal, we've decided to go to Broga Temple.
Aya-chan likes to visit places full of nature, so we planned to go there,
since Broga is full of green trees and hills, and also the air is so fresh.
So I guess it was a good decision.

Well, we visited around the temple, and captured photos.
Although the weather was HOT, but we still enjoyed our moment there.
It was fun. But hot hot hot~

After that, the next stop~ Balakong GreenBox Karaoke!
Waw, sounds good.
First time meeting with Aya-chan,
then I can got the chances to listen to her sweet singing voice!
Really felt so good. Haha.

Btw, I have sang just a few songs, I was only a listener the day. LOL.
I have enjoyed listening to Aya-chan's and Ben's singing.
I can felt that they seem so enjoyed with their songs.
Good good ><

In the end,
I had a really enjoyable time with Aya-chan.
I enjoyed the moment when we can talk with each other well.
Deeply appreciated the outing ^^
Looking forward to the next outing,
and we shall share more about our life. Cheers! ^o^

Aya-chan and I ^^

Relax & Enjoy Urself

Today is my 2nd day holiday.
Got nothing special, because I have nothing special to do.
Too bad~

What I am doing tonight? What is my plans for tonight?
Hmm... Since I got nothing to do at home, so I've decided~
What??
I am going to the horror movie tonight with my mum.
This is my first time take a horror films with just only mum.
Lol. Special mood ^^
Anyway, just relax and enjoy the movie!
Take it easy after hard days work. Enjoy your holiday mood~~~

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Happy Papa Day today!
Since today date is 0808~ ^^
By the way,
Today is also my papa's birthday! Oh YEAH~~
Happy Bufday to yOu my beloved dad~
Happy holiday!!
Happy Raya !!!
 Wa~~ alot of HAPPY in this post today!!
So, just stay Happy lar~~!!!

Polite

I wish to promise that I wouldn't get emotional easily,
but someone is made a rude actions in front me. 

Shit & Kanasai. @#$%&^!?
My work is treating me so well.
?????

Appreciate

Happy Father's day to my hero--- My beloved Dad! So much thank you for everything you've done for us.You are the best father in my world ^o^ I love you more than words I can say. Loveeez u!!

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Blog blog blog. I guess that's one of my habit when I have my thoughts in mind. I only can blogging. Because I not choose to talk. It is quite hard sometimes, facing things alone and I have no confident. Haiz.. What happen to me? I know things can't solve it easily. The word of "stressful" is come to my mind again. I just lost my way, I need help!! I felt so lost. Where I am... Where my direction is? I do sincerely know that those bad moments, it's just part of my life. People said don't look back, just see front. LOL. But I still looking back and I know so much things has changed. I missed it. How to do things right? How to slove things right? Seems there's nothing that I can do. Useless. How sad. Haha.. Don't lame Jamy.
By the way, Its good to have my mp3, listening to songs can make me feel really good, whether I'm singing them or just listening. I just can't live without my mp3. I like to read those songs lyric, no music no life lar. =D
Cheers!!!!